Thursday, December 30, 2010

The process.

Words cant describe the way you feel when your SO first tells you he's going away for a while...First your Upset, then your angry, then eventually you just go numb. I cant imagine being in his shoes at that time..figuring out in his mind how he is going to tell you, what he is going to say so you don't completely lose it. How he feels leaving the love of his life to go to some foreign land....yea...that's got to hurt....It takes a strong individual to wake up every morning at 5am to talk to you before he goes to work, to email you every chance he gets.....to balance his relationship and his career. Not everyone can do it, that's why so many of them break their relationship off so they can focus on whats to come.

You're SO will never fully know the feelings you feel when they are gone. We will never tell them we cry almost everyday thinking about them...Or that its hard making yourself get out of bed every morning and actually getting ready. That we spend 80% on a forum all day because we have no one else who understands us...That we have no desire to go out and party...The one thing we both depend on is the HOPE of hearing from one another keeps us going everyday.

My birthday is on the 31st..up until yesterday I thought my birthday fell on a Saturday, not a Friday..how is it that I know the exact days until June (152 days) but not even know what day my birthday is a few days before hand?. It's because im focused on one thing and one thing only..when my baby comes home.

That is what we are all focused on.

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